outside in

August 10th, 2007 at 12:15:27 AM

my eyes dont open
as well as id like
them to and
my heart isnt
as big as id like it
to be.

if you thought
you looked better
naked then you'd
know how i
feel.
if you thought
you sounded better
sleeping then you'd
feel how i
dream.

i noticed how i
dont fill a large
proportion but that's
simply because i
haven't found
the empty space yet.

i have flesh and bones
but no real
spirit lifting hands
to put into my pockets.
all i'm needing is a
long trail of shade
but i suppose that means
id have to depend on
those dying trees.

twitching beats and
slipping feet
keep me going.
[for now]

body vs. volume

August 9th, 2007 at 12:09:08 AM

i complained so loud
that it went
through the walls
between your eyes
and down your throat.

now all thats left
to find is the
hole where my
face was.

healing

July 31st, 2007 at 07:16:51 PM

check one:
to forget about the
world proving itself
to me.

check two:
to add all of my
mistakes together
and combine them
into one;a life story.

check three:
stare into a pair
of silver coated
eyes and weaken
at the knees.

check four:
take everything in
by breath and if i
become disoriented,
exhale.

check five:
to succeed at
something i never
even wanted.