I might just use this.

December 1st, 2006 at 12:25:10 AM

So yea hey people. of the world. whatever ~
i admit i am not in my best shapes nowadays but hey i am trying my best to at least have a line encircling me that prevents me from screwing up. hah! So much for being ~~sober~~ me. Will be flying soon this coming monday. Honestly, i can't wait. But i am afraid. I wonder how much has changed, whether the streets will still be the same. Will the river bank be filled with people at night, or perhaps my big family still laugh the same way they do. But i guess i will just have to find out, no? I hope it will be fun. And when i come back, it will be a new year with a brand new life. ~Moving on shit and that kinda stuffs. Yea, i am starting to be pretty good at it already. LOL.

Was watching one tree hill season 1 again. ; ) Since i was bored, and i have nobody to go out with. I sound so pathetic lar. I am afraid i will miss my best friend when i am in Taiwan. She keeps asking me to don't go. I actually feel sad to depart. Sigh. Reminder #1, don't screw up. Reminder #2, don't screw up - again. But i did. It actually hurt. I guess that when a person decided to be gay or bisexual or all lesbianed-up, she's bound to get condemned by someone, somewhere in life. Sigh. Well, i am not gay or lesbian even in this matter. I am not even bisexual. I liked a girl who looks like a guy. And trust me, i find the idea of kissing a GIRLY girl extremely digusting and way out of the line. Am i still gay? Or perhaps i am just lost, like the rest of you in this world. So continue condemning me, and plaster the name lesbian all over my aura of dirty body or something. You don't have to know me in person, you just have to know i am a lesbian and think it true. I am worthless. Yea. Go on and just do that. ~ I thought you are so much wiser than that already.

You said you didn't need me. And you don't.