i believe it was the way it was supposed to be

February 21st, 2008 at 06:24:28 PM

beginning notation: for you

my buttons felt unbound
under the cotton
we left our sounds
you felt the heat
and you could see me
i was always stirred up
in the faces you teased me with
the light wasn’t always off
and the room wasn’t always clean
but we were majestic behind four eyes
it always felt as if
you were mine and always my prize

through time the pulses never delayed
you grabbed my heart
and told it to stay
i imagined that i was your smile in an empty room
my body would quake
and my chest began to bloom
you pulled me inward
and the air got thinner
the sweat beaded off
as i touched your abdomen
it felt like silk
every time i gripped among you

you could look at my skin
and tell i was caught within you
trapped in your mind
my toes curled behind you
the feelings were indescribable
as we layed there
in nothing but my skin on top of yours
the hours would pass
and our smiles would calm
drowning out the clenching
and speaking of our pace
we drifted off forever
and woke up in a different place

ending notation: i love you.

everyone has left

February 20th, 2008 at 03:11:21 PM

i will post here now:

spittingspeech.wordpress.com

every twig should have at least one leaf

February 20th, 2008 at 12:49:54 AM

under your tree is where i'll be
for a lifetime
without the shade
i''ll be crisp and unclean
unforgivable from the start
the smiles are what i will
hide beneath

the daemons in my walls
are why i can't sleep sometimes
the speeding of the hours
leave me unfocused and
needing to be reprocessed
i spit these fires out and
i'm left cutting the angels from a string
simon says i'm supposed to stay
the puddles from the rain
always remind me i'm not the same

i've split my soul in half
and i grew an inch
then shrunk a pinch
you invented a machine out of me
my blood given to you
was always red
fresh right off my bed
flies inside of me
charge at my lungs
buzzing my insides
they tried to feast off what i live by
it's why they died

my veins folded grotesquely
into a heap of squares
indecisive as to why they tore me
i leaked for weeks
outside a window i was seen
still it wasn't a plea
if there were something i could reach
i would wrap it around my feet
and send it for you to be pleased

everything about you bathes me
if i could i would show you how i'm taken
it's saddening to hear because i
thought it'd be impossible if i were there
but as i get lost in a clear heart
i go back and focus on the start
it all just pulls me and doesn't listen
after i fell i was severely bitten

there are keys and there are doors
i'm behind one with a broken knob
the only way is the old way
the passion hasn't gone yet
i feel the sun should shine in on me
underneath you'd see my feet shuffle
then through the hole
you'd watch me erase the trouble